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Canada Day! We went volunteering (as usual) at Richmond Green. Holy crap, there are more and more people every year. This year, we couldn't find ANYWHERE quiet/empty. So we just sat in the field with everyone else. How terrible =( And I was sad, cause I was all snuggly and warm with Karen, and then her stupid mom came to pick her up early.  Boo.... We could've stayed for another half hour or so...

But otherwise, the day got off to a good start, cause Karen didn't scold me for once (She did later, but that's another matter). That felt like an accomplishment, believe it or not. In fact, not only did she not scold me, she praised me. That was like "whoaaa". We put on her sunscreen, except... it attracted ALL the bugs D: That wasn't fun. We did admissions over in the back, by the children's water park. Not nearly as fun as elgin/leslie, but definitely less busy than the elgin/leslie corner. The other two people at our table, a guy and a girl.... the guy was pretty cool. And he had some pretty neat card tricks. But that girl... she was supposedly in IB... except she was SO ditzy, it wasn't even funny (e.g. "What's that blue bill?"....me: "uhh... $5?"......."What's air con?") Not to mention she kept rubbing her leg against mine (I kept having to move away =\) And she kept ditching. Ugh, let's just not talk about her.

They only gave us $10 this year for food... lunch AND dinner. It's a good thing I had leftover bills from last year. On the other hand, they gave us a TON of junk food. Nerds, sweet tarts, sun chips, ruffles, skittles, juicy fruit, sour pirates.... Mmm...I think we all raised our risk for cavities (if we didn't get them already). They should definitely not put so much candy and junk food in the hands of teenagers.

I was kind of sad, cause I didn't have enough break time with Karen. At first, I said "It's a good thing that it's not raining this year". But on second thought, I wouldn't have minded if it rained a bit, cause 1) MUCH less people, and 2) They would evict us from our admission post like last year, and we'd have the rest of the day to ourselves =D.

I really liked being at the admissions table alone w/ Karen. She would lay her head on my shoulder... or lean against me... It made me feel really good inside. Until someone came along and disturbed the peace.

Watching the fireworks with Karen was really nice... And although it was cold, Karen kept me warm the whole time ^^. And I tried my best to keep her as warm as possible. I wanted to hold her closer to me... And then... she had to leave...

Overall... It wasn't as good as last year, nor the year before... but hey, next year will be better!

We volunteer so much there - they should give us a promotion. Admissions supervisor or something.

I think last week, I had one the best times of my life.

So my grandparents and mom were out of the country for about 2 weeks. They were off in Alaska, watching ice (fun stuff). So, of course, I take the chance to bring Karen over on wednesday =) She's never come over before, but she immediately got attached to my bedroom. In fact, I think she's a little TOO attached to it (especially after we had a lot of fun in it ^_~). We originally planned to stay only about half an hour or so. We ended up staying an hour... for reasons that shall not be mentioned *cough*. But I can definitely say that I was very happy afterwards. I felt a lot closer to Karen, and I was happy. She was very embarrassed, which I found really cute =P. We did not have sex, jeez, dirty mind.

So... we had a lot of fun for one day. But then, my Dad went out again, and guess what... Karen came over, AGAIN =) This time, my brother was home. He was practically just outside, on his computer. He says he heard the bed creak (Even though we weren't doing anything when it did, I think I just jumped onto the bed or something). I think Thursday was even better than Wednesday, cause afterwards, Karen looked reallyyy dazed and flushed =) I felt happy and proud. We stole my brother's red pillow, and we tried giving it back to him. I'm pretty sure he didn't want it back XD even though we didn't do anything to it. He has a.... vivid imagination.

Work ended! Well, technically anyway. I'm doing incentive calling for about two weeks during the day. They finished my job 2 weeks early, so they're giving me the chance to make up for it. But otherwise, we had lots of fun on the last day of work. Our boss gave us a ton of food, then a bunch of us sat around in a circle and just chatted. Afterwards, he put us to work for about an hour, and then we got off again, hahaha. We played Taboo as a huge group. Mannn, that was fun. It was pretty crazy. I got the word "Vibrate", and I started saying stuff like "They use this in sex and the city", "Girls use it"......"makes a motion". No one on my team got it =(. And then my boss CHEATED. Several times too XDDD. Haha.

Then my grandparents and mom came back. Man... my mom caught up on 2 weeks of missed mothering and piled it into one weekend. That was torturous =( It was like having a vulture circling over your head 24 hours a day. Worse, it was like having a bee buzz in your ear all the time >_>;; She made me do so much stuff while she was here. Run her on errands, clean out our closets. Oh, and she suggested I get a new bookshelf, and the day after, we went straight to Ikea and bought one. The good thing is though that now she's gone.

Speaking of furniture, I got a new desk, which I put together, and a new bookshelf. I already put both of them together. My desk is now in use, except I've had to change the layout of my room to accommodate it. Now my bed is moved all the way over. I don't have access to it from my desk anymore T_T I can't just turn around and flop onto my bed, haha. And my bookshelf wil be pretty big... Like, my current bookshelf can't fit much. Also, since I lost my drawers, we got a bookshelf that has modular drawers (From IKEA!)

Now my parents are gone to China again, so I'm semi-free now. Going to the zoo on Monday with Karen! =) That'll be lots of fun. Apparently they have a stingray interaction exhibit. I haven't been to the zoo in FOREVER. I can't even remember the last time I went. So it'll be good to go again... Hmm... And my bro and his friends might be going too. But I think we'll be splitting up =P.

School for Karen is over. It means no more visiting Langstaff (and getting weird looks from the teachers). People think I practically live there, hahaha. But I'll still be with Karen. This school year was really weird. It was almost like I was still a student at Langstaff, cause I went there so often. I'm glad Karen will still be at the same school as me. It means we can have lunch together again, see each other between classes again, and spend more time hanging out together again. Not to mention I'll be able to walk her to class again.

When I think about it, we'll be spending another 3 years in school again, haha. So what will happen once we don't have school anymore? No school to talk about, for one. We'll start complaining about work instead of school, I guess. But more importantly, we can FINALLY make our relationship to our parents. Ahahah. It will have been YEARS since we've been together, and our parents will think we've only been together for a year. Well, actually, my parents might think otherwise. They've seen Karen plenty of times. Prom... me being with her, holding hands with her (that one time was like... wth). Yea.... *Shrugs* We'll see how they take it. My parents keep telling me not to "get serious". So I wonder.... But Karen's mom. Oh boy. I hope I can make it out ALIVE.

As for this summer... I wonder if I'll be able to spend more time with Karen. I really hope so... But my parents will be around. Oh yea, and my Uncle is coming over next week. HIs whole family. That means I will have to relinquish my room again. So will my brother..... That means... I have to sleep with my brother. DDDDD: Karen, no WRONG THOUGHTS. Although... I guess I could do something to him for your entertainment LOL you decide what =P I will restrain him and do it. So take your time and think about it XDD The best part is, my parents' room has a lock.

Mmm... this was a long entry. I can't wait until Zoo trip! And Canada Day volunteering! That will be fun... Hehe. At least they didn't put me in Parking this time. God... that was pretty bad, hahaha. I might feel weird though, a Uni student volunteering when it's mostly high school students. Oh well! The important thing is I'm spending time with Karen... And I'll have plenty of opportunities the rest of this summer =)

This summer will be extra fun.

Ahh, so I went to Prom the second time. This time, it was all the way at LeJardin. They are evil for making us go so far =( Traffic was soooo bad. Then I felt bad for being late, cause Karen got there on time...

Anyway! I recognized Karen the moment I saw her... And my heart skipped a beat =P Even though she was wearing the same dress as last year, she looked stunning. I wanted to go up to her and pull her close to me (which I did). Then we went to hunt down ppl to take pictures with. I think she was a little too attached to Qi... >_<. She had lipstick on. It made me really want to kiss her. I actually really wanted her to leave a lipstick mark on me somewhere... but her lipstick wasn't oily enough, haha... Boo.

But yea, we had some fun hunting down ppl, and then we then we got our picture taken. That photographer seemed a little... impatient, to say the least. And the helpers for the photographer weren't very nice. I didn't get Karen a corsage this year... because she would've made the flowers look bad =P. Hahaha. That, and I didn't want to get the same kind as last year... And Karen said it wouldn't last... it would make me sad to see them wilt.

The food was bad (as expected), but at least this year, the pasta was cooked, and the chicken(?) was not dry. And they had another meat too: beef (I think it was beef... too tough+gray to tell). Probably the best part of the meal at prom was... the potatoes XDD Haha, the potatoes were the best (sadly). Then again, potatoes are almost always good. I wish I had gotten more potatoes....

Overall, prom this year wasn't as good as last year (no lounge area...), but at least we got free stuff! Or, free thing. A mug with the langstaff logo on it. Like Karen said, it didn't feel exactly like prom - just another party. I really wanted to take some pictures of Karen... but there weren't any good spots to take pictures from. We had some really good group pictures though. Some people who weren't really girly looked realllyyyy feminine (e.g. Linda), so I was surprised, haha. We didn't dance, but like, literally, the people were making the floor shake, and some people were being pretty... rowdy. Me and Karen started taking some random pictures.... holy crap, you have no idea how hard it is to pose. Karen wanted to take a picture of me. Sooo hard to pose... Everything I tried either looked bad, or made me look gay T_T And my photographer was out of ideas *coughcough*

I wished I could spend more time with Karen. We could've gone somewhere out afterwards... if it weren't for her mom. Sigh. Also, I wanted to get her to slow dance this year, except she wouldn't, haha. It's alright though, it wasn't even really dancing (I didn't really wanna slow "dance" that much... it was only cause I wanted to do it with her once at least). But it's okay. I'm definitely dragging her to a formal or semi sometime, haha. So we'll have plenty of opportunities. Not to mention that it gives her another chance to wear her dress... if only it wasn't for her mom.

You know, I think Karen has become quite a bit girlier... and it's a good thing. She used to hate wearing dresses and skirts. But now she seems to like them a lot more. And she's a lot more photogenic now. Now I gotta work on myself... I'm not very photogenic >_<. But yea. I really wanna buy her pretty clothes to wear... and have her wear them and take her out for a night out... Someday I will.

Anime North! Haven't been there in two yearsssss. Except this time I went w/ Karen, and we went volunteering. Oh man... what an experience.

So we show up the first morning to do registration package stuffing. I'm kind of glad I didn't have to do the stuffing... from what I heard, it was the worst... Not that moving boxes upon boxes of them was any better =(. Now I know why they gave double hours... And the staff had the nerve to kick me out! I was helping to move boxes to the back of the registration tables, and one of the guys told me to get out, cause I didn't have my volunteer badge. =( So they had to give me a temp volunteer badge... bah... The good thing is we got free lunch. Hehe... it was not bad either.

After that, we went to the Artist's Alley and Dealer's room for a bit. The dealer's room is absolutely impossible to get out of. Hahaha. I ended up getting a lolita headband for Karen, combined with a bell choker (looks like a cat's bell~). She looks so cute in them, it makes me want to hug + kiss her, and hold her close... We got them from a cosplay table... we ended up passing by that table like... 4 or 5 times, hahaha. The guy there was like "oh... you guys again". I swear he recognized us by the end of the con. Also, he scolded Karen for always having me buy her stuff XD and her not buying me anything... Hahaha. In the end, Karen wanted his email, cause he seemed like a "cool guy". But she didn't have the guts to ask him herself. So I had to ask him. Man, it sounded like I was gay or something. Even though I said Karen wanted it, he didn't seem to believe me.

But Karen did buy me stuff! She got me a mini voodoo doll (money boy!!!) which I love, and I'm not sure what to put on, haha. Also she got me a bankai zangetsu keychain~ It's so cool, and it's black too. Which makes it cooler.  Now I can chain it together with my shikai zangetsu for a set! Now just to figure out where to put it... Thank you Karen =P Help me think of where to put it. Same with the mini VD, hahaha. I don't want to put it on my phone cause it'll scratch it up even more...

Oh, we also got "Epic", "Fail" and "Win" pins. I think you can guess what those combinations make =P I gave Epic Win to my bro, and Epic Fail to Karen. But man, they ran out of "Epic"s initially. That's how epic they were XD.

Oh, also, we saw some of the best cosplayers (and the worst) ever. There was a dude dressed up as Squirtle. Suchhh a good costume, hahaha. People were ogling him, and it was funny. Especially during the masquerade, people were CHEERING for him so loudly. Speaking of masquerade... they kicked us out as volunteers. We were supposed to volunteer there, and they only gave us 4 hours, and then told us we had nothing to do. =( Not fair man. So we had to go to Spec Ops to get more hours (we ended up keeping the spec ops badge!), and guess what? We went back to help out at the masquerade! Hurrah. Crowd control is only semi-fun =(. And I didn't see many ppl I knew that day. Oh, and there was a scary Sailor Moon crossplayer. I'm so glad Karen didn't make me crossplay.... she said she might put me on a leash next year........ I'd be a dog.... hahaha. God... Then she'd probably get me the dog ears hat from dealer's room. Eh... I could live with that, I guess. As long as I don't have to wear a skirt... Oh boy.

So yea, after we finished up there, we went to eat at Timmies (mmm... chili). And then we went back to the dealer's room for more (window) shopping, ehehe. Too bad we didn't stop by the Yaoi Manga table, otherwise I could've gotten Karen some Phoenix Wright doujins... Ehehe.

After that, we went outside and relaxed for a bit. Karen slept on me for a bit outside, but then it started getting cold, so we went back in. Man, I wish we could've stayed overnight... Next year, we should get a crash space. Yes, we sleep with random people we don't know, but still! It's fun. Preferably, We would book our own hotel room *cough*, but that might be pricey.. eh, we'll see.

The next day, we went to do some registration. Erm, so yea, I found my friend, and I was supposed to trade her pokemon, but she was in the elite four, and couldn't come out. Oh well. Next time I guess. At any rate, I walked around to help look for doujinshi manga for Karen in the dealer's room, while she was helping out with Reg. I kind of wanted some yuri doujin... >_>;; Ahaha, I didn't say that. I also got a Domo for Karen's frd, who wasn't coming back that day. I bartered her down $2, ahaha. Later on, when it was my turn, the guy there said that they didn't need volunteers.... =_= I'm so glad I got that extra hour. Otherwise I would've had to get another hour somewhere.

We went to dealer's room (again!) for a bit, and I got my brother a 1-up block plush. It's supposed to make a coin sound when you shake it, but it kind of went haywire, and wouldn't stop, so we had to block the batteries. We went to volunteer at the Artist's Alley for a bit, to watch out for troublemakers. Thankfully, there were none, so we didn't have to do much.

We went alllll the way to Renaissance, JUST to play beatmania and DDR, hahaha. Ugh, I suck at DDR now. Oh well. I rarely play anyway. But on the way back, I could feel it in my legs. Soreeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Actually, they're still sore.

I think we spent the rest of the time in the dealer's room, buying random stuff. She got some full moon manga, cause it's diff from the anime. Also, we tried looking for the Yaoi paddle, but couldn't find it... We found one woman, but she was unwilling to part with it. When it came time, she actually offered it to us, but by then, we were already broke XDD. It's funny, cause there was an ATM machine right inside the dealer's room. Very well placed. Another ATM ran out of money, hahaha.

I wished Sunday didn't have to end so early. But I had so much more fun this year, cause Karen came with me. It's definitely making me go again next year (But next year.. I'm coming prepared with more cash). And next year, we MIGHT cosplay. Maybe.

I loved buying stuff for Karen. I kind of feel bad for not having enough money, cause there were so many things I wanted to get for her (e.g. the Yaoi paddle!). Also, I wish we didn't have to volunteer that much, cause then we could go and do other things like panels. The good thing is, Karen will be 18 by next year! We can go to the Yaoi panels if you want =P My friend looked at me funny when I said I was looking for the Yaoi table, hahaha.

I didn't get anything for myself... But I don't mind! Having Karen there was more than enough to make my weekend ^^ Not to mention that she bought a bunch of stuff for me too, which I love, haha. Thank you ^^ And thank you for going with me, and putting up with my uhh... annoyingness and immaturity (esp after DDR... *cough*) And next year we get to go Friday too =P

I think I went nearly broke this time around. And I STILL feel like I didn't spend enough XD.

Wentttt to watch Prince Caspian on Saturday with Karen. Ahhhh... That was a really good movie. Kind of melancholy, but very good. Karen was clinging onto me pretty tightly throughout the whole movie... and she said I smelled particularly good, which made me really happy ^^. Karen smelled really good too. I kind of wish there wasn't an arm rest between us, so that we could sit closer together~. I felt really euphoric after the movie, and we went by indigo, where I got Karen an apple cider. They gave us a Grande when we ordered a Tall. Oh well, haha. The barista said he forgot the order, so he gave a grande just in case. Then we saw the cutest TYs! It was an elephant and monkey named Winks and Dangles. Sooo cute and soft... So I bought Karen both of them, haha. Then Karen bought me one. Thank you so much~~ I love Winks, haha. He's so nice to sleep with =P.

I drove Karen home aftewards. For once her mom wasn't home... And wouldn't be home for awhile. I really wanted to go in with her... and spend some alone time with her... *Sigh* my only chance gone. It's been so long since we've had time alone together... Well, she had homework to do, so it was probably for the better...

All of today, I've been working w/ my dad and a friend on our driveway. Let's just say that it's kind of a mess right now... =( And I got kind of messy. We redid our gutters, our front steps, and some of the pieces on our driveway. It's still not completely done...

I miss Karen...

Udon's tail still hasn't started growing back yet! T_T Why isn't it growing back.... Maybe I'm just being impatient, hahaha..

I went w/ Karen to her advising appointment on Tuesday. It was........ really long. Not as long as 3.5 hours, but still. It was good that we got to talk to a counselor though. I think EATS will be interesting =P So don't worry. And plus, you can always ask me for help when you need it. I'll try my best to help you out.

But yea, I've been thinking a lot about my future career, and... well, I figured, if I'm going to go into investment banking, or trading, what better way to show your financial expertise than start a blog? So I'm probably going to co-start a financial blog w/ my friend, sometime during the summer, or right after. I think it would be a good idea...

Also, I've been charged with the responsibility of revitalizing our lawn (which is in a horrid state). Unfortunately, I haven't been supplied with enough seeds. I even asked my mom if we had a big bag of seeds at home! She said yes. So I figured we had a huge bag of seeds, enough to seed our entire lawn. Boy was I wrong. It was HALF of a TINY bag, and all it got was about half of our front lawn... =\.

I've got to brush up on my photography skills. I went and took some quick shots of the apple tree in front of our house, and well, they came out pretty bad. I'm pretty sure that, if given a film slr camera, I wouldn't be able to work it. The disadvantage of being given a digital SLR is that it encourages you to experiment, and discourages you from being accurate. From now on, I think I should be working on full-manual mode.

I also got my haircut. She cut it crooked. One side has shorter hair than the other T_T.

Does anyone else even read this? =(.

Tragedy has struck! Udon's tail broke off T_T Rawrrrrr. I was trying to get ahold of him, cause he was running away, and it just came off...
 

I hope he'll be okay... Hopefully he will grow back a tail. I gave him some anti-septic, so he shouldn't get infected. Rawrr... Poor Udon... He looks amputated...

Anyway, I went to school on Friday w/ Karen, to get her orientation package. And I showed her a part of campus she hadn't seen before. I think she was a little scared, and lost, haha... so I had to hold her hand =P. We took the bus there, and Karen slept on me almost the whole way, hahaha. I really love it when she sleeps on me... she looks really cute. That, and I love seeing her when she just wakes up, and is still half asleep. I don't know why. But yea, we went and got her orientation package, and went over the stuff inside... She seems really afraid to go to university... But I'll be there with her. I kind of want to take a class with her, but it's hard when we are in diff programs. But yea... I'm gonna help her to work hard (and work smart?). Can't let her give up. We were sitting outside on a rock, under the trees... It was really nice out too. That, and she was clinging onto me pretty hard... ^^;;. I only wish we didn't have to leave so soon (And that it wasn't over school). *Sigh*

Then, when we came back, she slept on me the whole way again XD *sigh* I wouldn't mind going to school with her every day. It would make school that much less bad... probably for both me and her.

Tomorrow, we're going again for her enrollment appointment. Man, how I wish I could go in with her. I think she needs someone to cling to... haha.. just kidding. But yea, I'm not gonna have much to do for 3.5 hours. I guess I could wait for her at the Schulich Building until she finishes, but what if she finishes early? Boo... at any rate, we'll get to find out her schedule for next year, and I can probably work mine around hers, so we can have lunch together, and finish together! Hahaha.

Anyway, let's not talk about school any more (esp since i'm done for the year, haha). Let's see... what's coming up? ANIME NORTH. Time for more scarring from scary cosplayers. I wonder how Karen will take it.... Granted, she's not easily disturbed, and there are some pretty hot guys, but still... haha. Man, I'd better keep an eye on her.. I don't want her to uh... overspend too much (or gawk at too many guys, for that matter). It shouldn't be TOO bad, cause we're still volunteering after all, but.... yea.

Damnit. I just thought of something. Dramacon.... =( Karen, you'd better not be true to the manga.

Heh, this Saturday, Karen and I went downtown to go to the Anime North volunteer orientation. About... 15 people showed up? Guess most people aren't willing to go all the way to the library downtown, hahaha. But yea, the guy there... soooo annoying. His voice was so nasal ("I'll get that wabbit"), and he was kind of rude too. We signed up for all the same stuff, hahaha. We're working admission, artist's alley (?) and the Masquerade. Oh, and we're packing goody bags. Yay. I'm actually more looking forward to the masquerade. Hahaha. Some performers are epic fail, while others are really funny and well thought out. Guess we'll see this year. As for AN itself... I dunno, it's okay, I guess. Maybe I should go to the JPop Dance. Although the idea of dancing in a room that might potentially hold sweaty unshaved nerd guys in a schoolgirl suit does not appeal. But yea, we signed up for all the same jobs, meaning we'll be working together again! It's been awhile since I've volunteered with Karen. I really love volunteering with her, hahaha. It's a good excuse to go out together, without being suspicious. Not to mention that I just love spending time w/ her period (even though it does involve pain usually, haha. But love hurts.)

Mother's Day is coming up! I got some Eau de toilette for my mom, and hand lotion for my grandmother. Ehhh. Maybe I should get something else. But I feel so very poor T_T I used up almost all of my paycheck for my training week for those 2. I liked shopping around w/ Karen, though she got really awkward every time she went into a clothing store, hahaha. Maybe I should train her to shop............. On second thought, for consideration of my wallet, maybe not. I do enjoy shopping for clothes for her though... Like, I always see some nice outfit, and want to buy it for her, cause I think it'd look good on her =P. All of a sudden, I feel very gay (metrosexual?). But I gotta make more money, so I can take her out more, and buy her more stuff. While we're on that topic... I'm still not sure what to get her for her birthday. I WAS going to buy her a camera, but she refuses to let me buy it for her... So I guess I'll have to think of something else now. Hmm.... What could she possibly like... that costs under $100... I gotta get her something that will make her go "WOW".

Karen brought me to Sushi on Bloor for lunch, which apparently her brother loved a lot. Their food was pretty good, although we got off 1 subway station too late, and had to walk a long way from the station. It was a good excuse to just walk with each other though (but in the rain, and not allowed to hold hands =( unfortunately....).

I've started playing a game on my DS called "The World Ends With You". It's an action RPG by SquareEnix (same guys who made final fantasy, kingdom hearts, super mario rpg, etc.). It's an RPG set in modern Shibuya, Tokyo, with lots of urban themes. It's a pretty cool game, literally. It's got a lot of "cool" appeal. The armour/weapon system involves brands that change in popularity, and gives boosts if they're popular, and hinder if they're "uncool". And the game itself is peppered with techno, hiphop, pop, and jpop music. Pretty cool stuff.

In other news, I started practicing my golf swing again. Oh my god, I got bad. Not that I was very good to begin with, but I got worse after not practicing for over a month. And now my entire body is sore. I don't think there's a cure for full body soreness, except for Advil or something. And I don't particularly want to take an Advil.

If you aren't curious, then don't read on. You have been warned.

So... This Friday. What can I say. It was so spontaneous and hot =P And she felt so right in my arms... Warm and soft... My hands roving her more forbidden parts. It made me really excited, I kind of wanted some action right there right then, haha. I don't think I should go into more detail, since some other people do read this. Let's just say it involved a lot of hands and lips, and leave it at that. BUT I do wish we had more time. Unfortunately, Karen had work, so we had to leave early =( And only got 15 minutes. *sigh* Oh well. There's always next time, hahaha. Oh man, I hope I'm not killing someone's mental virginity... Or image of me, for that matter.

While we're still on this topic... I just realized how hot a guy/girl/guy threesome can be. I mean, I do have a jealousy complex. I'm not very uh... keen on sharing my Karen with another guy. But... there's something about seeing another guy take her that gets me really pumped up. If you put all that pumped up energy in the bedroom... there will be quite a display of fireworks. Hmm... I guess it wouldn't hurt if there weren't too many feelings involved, or if it wasn't a regular thing... We'll see. Meanwhile, I'll have to try to get rid of my...... own... "energy" right now from thinking about. RAWR. But Karen has put an embargo on self-pleasure. =( And I haven't gotten any "affection" from her lately. So I'm feeling quite... pent up.

Here's hoping I get release soon.

Only 1 exam left to go, and I'm done school! Only thing I regret about that is no more daily trips to visit Karen, haha. That really upsets me, but not too much I can do.

Augh, Black's hasn't called me back. I guess this means I didn't get the job. Eh... I didn't particularly want to work there anyway =\ The pay was low, and according to my friend, the manager is a bitch... But money is money, and I guess that's less money for me. This just means that I gotta start looking for another part time job. Hmm... maybe I'll try for Starbucks again. Gotta keep trying.

Speaking of which, I started my job at the call center this Wednesday. Alright, so far, the job seems pretty good. It's not overly hard, and I'm sure with more practice comes better skill =) And the work environment seems pretty relaxed. We play a game at the start before shift or after break, to reinforce teamwork, trust, etc. Yesterday, we played a game where one person had to lead another person across a winding path on the floor, except the person walking the path had to keep their eyes closed, and the leader couldn't touch the walker. Tons of people messing up commands, and mixing up left and right, hahaha. And the day before that, we had to built the tallest house of cards, and a house of cards that could support the most weight. We tied with another team for most weight bearing, but we lost the height one =( cause ours fell over. Oh well. Speaking of work environment... it is HOT in the call center. It was about 20 degrees outside last night, and it was 31 degrees in the call center =\. Not the best place to be sitting or doing work. But I managed to get closer to a bunch of co-workers. We were chatting it up at the bus stop while waiting for their bus, even though I drove, hahaha. But that's only cause they let us off work early. Next week, I'm gonna have to start doing actual calls... Agh, hope I'm ready.

I visited Karen todayy. It's the first time in... a few days that I've actually talked w/ her. And she was really happy to see me, which made me really overjoyed. And it felt really good hugging her... haha... Even though it was super hot and sticky today =\. Man... But I was so happy when I went to visit her. Too bad my brother wanted to get home early... although we ended up getting home late anyway. There was a huge accident on major mac and bayview, and the police pretty much blocked off like, every intersection in a 500m radius, so literally traffic was frozen. I had to take a detour >_<. When I dropped Karen off at Zellers... we went to walk around, and to get one of her.... things. Yes. And I was stuck holding it the whole time >_>;; so embarassing. Also, I found myself putting it against my cheek, and I didn't realize it until Karen pointed it out. Aghhhh embarassingggg. Thank god there weren't that many people around.

Ahh, while I'm on the topic of my brother... It's his birthday tomorrow! Hm.. I think I know what I'll get him. But what's more concerning is... dinner! He's not sure what he wants for dinner tmr. He said KBBQ, but not I'm sure if everyone would like KBBQ. But personally... I wouldn't mind KBBQ, ahhaha. Too bad the weather's too hot for smthing like hotpot. I don't suppose I could get other suggestions for dinner for like... 10 people. At any rate, we'll see tomorrow.

I need another job DDD: I feel so bored, rotting at home. And summer school hasn't started yet. I suppose I should get started studying ethics soon, even though it until more than a week later.

Also... I don't really want to go swimming for the next couple months.. cause that requires wearing swim trunks, and.... yea. Nvm.

Today's my birthday!!! I'm technically legal. And... My family didn't really celebrate with me... they didn't get me anything, and we had a hotpot dinner, without my grandmother and my dad finished early and left. But...

That's okay! Karen more than made up for it. I think because now I celebrate my birthday way more with Karen than with my family. Haha... Except it feels a lot like Karen's already family.

But yea, this morning, I got this really coollll pocky that i'd never seen before. It looks so cool, and nice that I don't want to eat it =( And I got a Dr. Grip pencil! Yes! And this one is extra soft and the surface won't scratch/fade. Wow. They just make these better and better. I was really really impressed, hehe. And Karen got it all the way from Japan too.

Then, in the afternoon, I got prodded about for awhile, and got to play with an orange condom-like balloon, then was presented... with a CAKE! A MANGO cake! My favourite kind of cake (next to cheesecake)!!! Ahhh, so happy. XDD I kind of wanted to eat more, but Karen had to go to work. It was really really good. I was wondering if she'd get me a cake, but this time, she didn't really make any obvious preparations, so I was actually thinking she wouldn't get me one this year. Boy was I wrong.

Also, during lunch, Karen made me fold a $20 bill into a heart (which I had to go get) under very....um... "hard" conditions. >_<. And then... She gave me that $20. I was literally speechless. I thought she wanted me to get it for her! I really feel bad now... But really grateful. Haha. I actually really needed money >_< I don't know what to say, except thank you.

Thank you so much Karen! You made my bday special =P And I got the best presents. EVER. I don't think anyone could top them, except maybe you, haha.

You know what this means, right? That means you won't have any competition. Haha. So that's a good thing. On the other hand, competition for you.... That's another matter. Somehow.... somehow, I have to top your presents for me. I'll definitely beat you, just you wait.